hello world!

I've been meaning to get a journal, the minute i found out about my pregnancy. My last attempt, was last night...and because it rained, and someone had just warned me a few days ago that getting rained on, while pregnant, even just a drop, would make my baby sickly, my man and i quickly hopped into a trike and headed back to the inn. i never got to do to what i was meaning to do all day, except pick up our laundry and buy a few things in the local native market. woe is me!

So much has happened and i wish i had done this sooner! my memory is not as reliable nowadays since i had developed keener senses (smell, touch, taste)..there is literally much too much to remember. and my dreams! they are 10x more vivid (vivider, vividerer, vividest!) than usual...and i tell you, i have very vivid dreams since childhood. Just the other day, i dreamed about all kinds of cakes, i have never seen in my life, and it took me forever to decide which one to get...i'm going to paint them, when i get the chance.

I am exactly 10 weeks along the path to motherhood. and i can't wait for the first trimester to be over! it's been one freaky ride. i am almost always dizzy, and overly sensitive, its making me crazy. Finished about a ton of inhalers and bottles of white flower embrocations. Ongoing thought on my head: 'the room is turning' and 'when will this be over?' i don't even know the feeling of normal anymore....dizzy is my new normal. And talk about sensitivity, sentimentality, and hyper temper! i admit, i was never stoic about feelings. emotional is my middle name or first...but! this really takes the cake. i'm a hundred times more emo than usual. i cry at a drop of a hat, not even a drop, but even when the hat is on! i snap like a turtle at any snide thought. i am mood swinging back and forth. i'm just so thankful, i have a very sensitive and understanding man....thank you, Jesus!

Having muesli with banana and mangoes for breakfast. I really haven't been watching what i eat nowadays..not that i can eat anything...i am allergic to anything sauted, and overly complicated dishes. i like em boiled, fresh, grilled or pouched! i look at food with either desire or desdain...i dont know what to expect from myself anymore. i used to gorge on veggies, now i can't stand them, well it depends on my mood....but im more fruits, seafood, meat, and more fruits kind of gal lately. and for some odd reason, i hate the smell of coffee! its like stink from hell, i cant imagine inhaling for too long, i'd rather die!

I've gained about 10 pounds since my last check-up...and i'm guessing i gained another 5 pounds in the last two weeks. I haven't been sleeping well since my last project does not give me such luxury. Now i'm making up for it...my eyes get real droopy by 9pm and i can be in deep sleep ten minutes later.

Today, i'm just waiting for my man, and our friend, mara to wake up...so we can hop into a rented motorbike (which my doctor told me not to do...we will drive very very slowly...i promise) and head for the nearest surfing spot in town. I can't really surf anymore, when i paddle on the board, i feel my tummy being squished so, i just float around on my back to the board...and let others take the waves...i'm content with the sea and sun. I wonder if they make surf boards with a curve for the tummy? Besides, i still suck at surfing...BUT! i will get better....nothing good is easy...just like motherhood.